blog#38:Halloween yay but nay!

Its Halloween today, everyone is excited about today. But for me its just another day that was put on the calendar! While others put on outfits to go hang out with their friends and go trick-or-treating, I get to stay at home and be bored out of my life with no candy, cupcakes. cookies, or nothing to do or eat. I find myself surrounded in a world that is unknown to me whenever this day comes!

I learned siting at home one day on Halloween a couple of years ago that Halloween celebrates the dead, and the demon and demonic spirits. I have come to try to find other things to do on Halloween such as last year I went to this event at the FCF church that passed out candy, had a show that had a clown performing, and that had moon bounces for people of all ages to get onto. This year however i find myself not doing anything, but I'll make up for it! hopefully!

 

blog#37:church moving day!

I woke up today and everyone was happy that my church was moving to another location. Which, to me, and others means no more freezing during the fall,and winter. When i got to church everyone was happy, acting like they had won $1,000 each! I felt that this was a good and new start, for the church to move up since the struggle its been having for the past few years.

I felt as though i was the only one that wasn't really super excited about the move, although i am happy the church is moving because my hands were freezing on Sunday! I was also happy that my brother came to church for the first time in like three weeks, and that my other older brother was there! I  was also happy to see my fake nephew and sister, and I was also happy to hear that he won second place in a Halloween competition!

blog#36: Concert day!

It is finally my concert day, I am pumped about this! It seemed like forever until the concert! But the concert went great as to be suspected it was my last day with some of my new friends and acquaintances. I loved the way we sounded when we were in the concert. I also liked the way the Towson University Choral sounded great! I also liked their women, and men choir, and the songs they sung and their performance throughout the songs. Lastly the songs that were sung by the three master class students were even better than they were before at the rehearsal!

blog#35: unbelievable!

Its unbelievable to me that my best friend is now mad at me over something dumb! He's mad that I told him the truth, if he didn't want the truth from me he never should have asked me the truth. I tried to apologize to him and talk to him but every time i tried he ignored my call or text. I tried to do what i learned in church but that seemed not to work, and I learned that a person doesn't want to accept your apology, or talk to you don't force them because you tried to make up with that person,and be nice. I don't want to seem desperate so as for right now I'm going to leave it alone!  :)

 

 

 

blog#34: Movies!

Went to the movies to see Paranormal Activity 3. It started off kind of suspenseful since this was the only one i was watching i never saw the first or second movie, and those explained the third movie. I felt as though i was behind a lot when my friends had to bring me up to date on what happened in the first two movies to cause something to happen in the third movie.

So far from what I know in the first two movies the sisters are living their lives and are grown. They forgot how their parents passed away they thought they passed away in a fire in their home, at least that is what their grandmother told them. The third movie goes in depth how their parents passed away, they find out that they helped their grandmother set up to kill their parents, that they were demon influenced, and they go over what happened and they start to remember every thing that happened.

The movie is interesting, scary, and funny for some people, and to me! But I'm not going to tell everything that happened now what will be the fun in that?

 

blog#33: Singing, singing, and more singing!

Today i had a 5 hour chorus practice/ rehearsal session. I was a very long and drawn out day I'm tired from all of the music i had to learn today! I am happy to be home though as well! I was excited to see two familiar people today from New Town that had the pleasure of joining me in the great experience of going to the Towson University Festival chorus. I also made a new friends today and met new people.

The soloist that I heard today for the master class were awesome. I was very surprised that only three people made the class and that they were all girls or sopranos! But my day is not over yet i plan on getting my nails done, and going to the movies!

 

blog#32: Nails pretty nails!

So today i went to get my nails done it was very hard for me to decide what color i wanted, how long i wanted my nails to be, whether or not i wanted fake nails or to get an overlay on my real nails. I decided to get a pearl type nail polish and to get an overlay.I remember the last time i got fake nails it hurt really badly and that was during prom. It was a great experience that i love to do!

blog#31: Time to get back on track!

Today i was talking with my best friend, and it was very awkward! We were on the phone for like thirty minutes without a word! That is very awkward for me and him especially for me and him on the phone. We usually can talk for an hour or two but today there was an awkward silence on the phone. I felt as though our friendship we separating and as though it was a matter that is out of my hands! This reminded me that i have other responsibilities like getting back on track with my blogs!

blog#30: TGIT

Some things that i got from TGIT were:

• Give your best!
• Be your best!
• Take responsibility!
• Go from good to great!
• make up when you mess up!
• You cant have any fear!
• You are in control of your future, and destiny!
• Start over from scrap!
• Keep moving forward, don't give up, and don't quit!
• You can have whatever you want, even if you struggle to get it!

I thought all of the above are very positive and are things that i can put into consideration, and apply to my life!

Day #29: Birthday?

Went to school today and through out the day i got a few happy birthdays, only because people probably didn't know, didn't care, or forgot. I felt as though what would me telling people its my birthday change no matter what was going on people wouldn't care or give me anything! My friend told me to wear this tiara she had brought but i wouldve just looked and felt like a damn clown!

So far none of my brothers has told me happy birthday so forget it! Im happy I could see another birthday as well though! Even though i may never get the **** I want for my birthday, im happy to see yet another one which most people my age dont! Im just happy that a selective few of people cared enough to tell me happy birthday!

Day #28: What to do now?

The only question that keeps popping up in my head is what to do know. Im always the person smiling, being nice to others, being stabbed in the back, talked about. Being put in situations i should have to deal with at my age. What to do now?

Day #27: Finally!

My Wi-Fi and TV finally works again and i am happy I've been trying so hard to post a blog online! I feel bad now knowing that i am behind and that I've missed so many days of blogging! So tomorrow's my birthday and im really not excited this year as i was years before! I've grown to realize the older you get especially in my case means the less you get.

I wish i could go on a trip somewhere by myself for once and get away from school, family, and friends all very stressful factors in my life! This time my older sisters and brothers forgot about me, and one left out the house to keep from getting in trouble. He also probably left out so he wouldn't have to tell me happy birthday, even then all that matters is him telling me that!

What he doesn't realize is that i know he's not going to give me anything because he's selfish, but i look at the thought because over the years I've learned not to look for much or anything on my birthday. People always make promises they cant keep! I rather be told the truth then lied to and to be hoping for something i might not ever get.

Excited!

I had fun today and i got my work done this morning that i had planned to do! I got up this morning and found that i was faced with yet another dilemma and this time it was one of my family members. Although i still had an interesting and fun day! I first went with my parent to my older brothers job at imagine discovery, where we dropped by to say hello.

Then from there I went to breakfast with my parents to Bob Evans, where i had the farmers choice it was really good if i can remember the name of what i ordered! That was a big deal for me because that was my first time going there, and because I went with my parents. While there we got to talk about my college choices and options i was telling them about the schools i was going to apply to.

My father told me that i should be open to the fact of going to community college for free and for a start, to get use to college life, for finance reasons, and to raise my GPA higher to like a 4.0. I told him that I would keep that option open and I would decide which option fits me best, and which one i can benefit more from. After that I went with them to Walmart where we went and picked out my uncle a flat screen tv, and other household items such as a comforter, cordless phone, and dvd player.

From there we went to visit my older sister, then  to my aunts house, then to hip hop fish and chicken, then home finally! 

 

Farmers Breakfast yummy! :) 

Tuesday

So it Tuesday and we don't have school tomorrow. I am happy for the first time in a while! I learned how to do something difficult in trig today! I think that the degree circle might be one of the hardest topics that we have talked about so far in that class. I also had to present today in my fourth period Human Services intro class about finance, and education and training. I also had to take a test in AP Human Geography about maps, and geography.

Goals and palns

Today i got a plan or goals chart in Avid I have much work to accomplish in this month. But at least today i can say that i did an act of kindness. I gave Emoni fifty cents for her lunch today and a extra dollar to buy something extra. I also gave Arriana a sheet of paper for our fourth period health class to write down some important terminology. Also i helped Shauntria with an issue concerning her college essay i helped her put her college essay together.

Stuck Here!

Ok so on Thursday my parents went out of town, and i was stuck at home with my aunt. Ugh how i wish i could have been left with my older brother, or close family friend last week. Why did my parents had to at such a time as this when it is very crucial.

For the first time in my Trigonometry class i finished all of my homework that was given out on Wednesday on Thursday instead of the day of. I felt as though that one of my priority was actually being completed on time for the first time. I wished that parents would have left at least five dollars for me to eat on Saturday for the Alumni Homecoming.

This is unbelievable!!!

Its unbelievable that everyone in my house are being blamed for stilling my aunts fifteen dollars from her wallet. Now we cant do nothing and my birthday is next week, and i will not be stuck in this house with my family unless i have school priorities. Today though one of my siblings thought they would get me ion trouble and take the attention of themselves for sneaking clothes out the house.

Ok so it all started when i was gone to the Alumni Homecoming with my friend and her grandmother, I was having a copious amount of fun with them. Then when i came back home I was questioned about taking her money which i couldn't have because i left out the house broke, and she had just found her money stolen. In my mind though i don't believe her money was stolen, and she wanted to use my parents to give her more money. Either that or my older brother took her cash.

I find it very ironic that every time she comes over to watch us her money is somehow stolen or misplaced. I think that is some bologna that her money was taken or misplaced but im not going to let my parents doubting me and my younger siblings get the best of me! I have an test tomorrow in AP Human Geography so its time for me to continue studying.

A great opportunity

Over the weekend i had great amounts of fun! I went with my best friend Tylar and her grandmother to the Morgan Alumni Homecoming. While at Morgan I established a new interest in that school in particular. Although my brother graduated from there and I vowed not to go there, I am now considering the school for one of my five college/university choices.

I had fun sitting in on a meeting with Alumni, and board member for the family and consumer sciences board members (which Tylar's grandmother used to be a part of). I also found out that she used to be a part of Delta Sigma Theta which i found to be awesome. I got to also tour the campus, and see where she stayed at in the 70's.

I got the opportunity to meet several other Alumni's that had graduated with Tylar's grandmother, and were her close friends. By the end of the day i was happy I risked walking to starbucks from my house with no money or transportation to get a ride. I really think god was looking out for me on Saturday, and had a purpose for me going to Morgan.

Ugh!!!

Okay so im mad right now my parents went out of town, and they left me with my aunt! I really have to make sure she doesn't cook anything for me, and i don't tell her mine or anyone else's business. She is very nosy and will tell you and ask for anyone's business (literally)! Why in the world whenever my parents go out of town they leave me with her?

I guess i have to suck it up until they come back in town, even though i really don't want to! But that is not the only thing that happened to day i went to the first SGA meeting for the school, what more to represent the school than to be in SGA. Plus the good part is it is run by one of my favorite teachers through out high school. I was happy to find something else i could do in school!

Although I am not in sports at the school, etc. I finally found something else besides singing that i am interested in doing. This doesn't mean i don't want to try something else new, im thinking about doing cheerleading for the basketball season, but i have a full schedule ahead of me there is never a dull moment this month, next month, this year, and yet alone this school year.

Another day of school

I am ready to start of yet another day of school. I really cant wait to start the Socratic seminar, and i am interested to see what each house has to offer. I need for me and my house members to keep up the pace and to bring in great questions for the seminar.!

gloomy day

Despite the fact that it was gloomy outside, i actually feel cheerful! I had fun being able to help others when it comes to making a smart goal and expressing what they had learned in their class, and how they liked what they had learned in their classes. Right now though i am editing my college essay, doing my trigg. home work, and preparing for the school day tommorrow.

I officially have fifteen days left until my birthday, i am excited, and i cant wait to celebrate and finally do something for myself, for like the first time this year! I had a great day though overall, if i think about my day it was productive which is good for me to say! Ill leave off saying that trigg. was kind of a challenge for me today but im willing to step up to the challenge!

primary beneficiary

I learned a lot in church today, and the message was very great! One thing i learned is that i can trust god to meet or supply my needs, and that i have to be faithful of what god gives and supplies me. I also learned that the primary beneficiary of my stewardship is me.

I learned that the word keep means the Greek word obey. I have to learn how to start budgeting my time and my money. I also learned that sometimes i want the presents sometimes and not his presence, and that's the thing i need to seek after. I learned that i need to do things according to his riches not out of his riches.

Afterwards i went to old peoples buffet (ok its really not called that) but to me that it what i call it, not to make fun of it. I cant make fun but my parents are senior citizens and they love going their (that should be enough information). I was actually surprised at the fact that i actually enjoyed the food and had a good time with my family for like the first time.

16 more days

Its officially 16 more days till my birthday and today is my friends birthday. I have many things to do today as it involves school work. It is getting very cold outside i woke up this morning and it was freezing cold in my room. I went outside and saw that there was already a lot of leaves that have fallen on the ground.

I also saw that the pretty flowers that have withered away very fast, and just two weeks ago it was seventy degrees outside and now its about sixty degrees. Anyways i don't know what i want to do for or on my birthday, i might just go out to dinner with my friends. I am surprised at what my best friend had told me yesterday about him being supportive of me going to any four year university i want to.

My parents are very happy at my grades i showed them yesterday. I am surprised though at the fact they were kind of surprised at the fact it was so good. Right now i have to work on maintaining my grades so that i can increase my GPA. Right now i need to focus on going on The Common Application website to to write my essay and narrow down the list of colleges i made that i am considering to go to.